Whywhywhy. The emotions come in waves and I’m hoping the feeling goes away when I get up the next morning but it doesnt.. I go to sleep hopeful but when I wake up, my thoughts just go crazy again.

I’m not that strong it seems. Weaker, much weaker than I thought.
Strength, I need to draw strength, but from where? From who? From what?

Sigh, still gloomy. And angsty abit.

I thought things would and could turn out the way I wanted but I was wrong!!!
So after seeking advice from a couple of people, I’m going to try again but differently this time.

I’m just keeping my fingers crossed that itll work, and that I’ll have more patience.
All these because I want to see you laugh, smile and happy.

I feel more alone than I am.
Having words to say, but who to say them to?
Feel so bad inside but whose shoulder to turn to..?

Where do I go? Lost.
Very lost.